Jessica Alba omg she's so hot. And she didn't even have to be slutty in that movie. She just had that look. Just by looking in her eyes. You can tell she was gorgeous. She just doesn't have a nice body. But she had such a good role. She seemd like she's one of thse girls that would do anything for you and be your best friend and be there for you. That's who she was. She wasn't the perfect girl. but she was still quite an innocent person. And to be in a movie that bloody it just seems.

Man that movie just thought me a life lesson. Instead of trying so hard to be nice, just relax and be myself a lot more. That's like what I am at work. I really don't let things catch me at work. I was talking to Ali a friend of mine at work. And he told me all the drama that goes on. I was liking this one girl but she's seemingly sleeping with everyone. And ali isn't a person to lie. He's somewhat on a different level you could say.

He just started confessing to me about all this stuff. How he was bisexual and stuff. I mean I could have ever imainge it. He didn't seem the type. But he is a very quite guy, and now that I talk to him a bit more, he's pretty sensitive. Well since we were talking. I told him I was bisexual quite a number of years ago. He seemed surprised by that. Everybody does. Well I don't ever talk about it. Actually this is the first time I ever brought it up. I haven't even said that on my MDD site either.

When he was telling me about his problems. It old him that when you're bi, you start to feel yourself being torn apart. Do you like guys more than girls, or the other way around. And If you ever tell a girl that. They're going to ask what do you think of this guy they point out. Of course he's smart not to answer. Espically if you're interested in that girl. You wouldn't want to show interest in anything elese you know.

I grew up around a lot of girls. I told you guys that before. That's just the way it is. I mean I can kind of see why and where I get a lot of the stuff from. Being sensitive and touchy touchy. That's because I grew up around all that. So it's kind of weird. It was like a sensitive and aggressive guy put together. That doesn't mix very well. Start tearing yo apart and such. So what did I love more. Girls So I chose girls in the end. Even if it means being friends and not dating for like 6 years (or is it 7 now? Can't even keep up @_@ lol) That's just the way it is. Things will never ever be the same.

Are you guys still wondering when I'm going to write the next story? Well I'll give you what's going on. My computer is messed up. So I'm on my brothers. I'm letting Mike see what's wrong with it. And might have to buy a burner for it finally. Start burning my anime. I still haven't had time to sit down and do bunch of homework. It's crazy. I just don't get it. I kept telling myself that I'm going to study yet I don't. Argh drives me insane. Do you want to struggle so much like everybody else. "I should have done better in school." If's there's so many dead ends. Why don't people do what's the best thing for them instead picking the wrong thing? How does that happen? Do we like bad things happening to us. Does it give a better story telling type deal. Does it make life more interesting. Oh this puzzles me.

Anyways. Let me let you guys go. Alicia's talking too much about her boyfriend and I haven't even mention anything about him. Just said how was your day. It's like they love to rub it in my face or something. Or it just tells me that I'm a really really selfish person. Time to go to bed and think about am I a good guy. Or just someone out to use everybody else. So tough. >.<