Oh man what's up with most of the girls I'm talking to...? All are like having a bad day or deep in thought or or I don't know. God I hate wanting attention this sucks. Not only that I got really beaten down in the arcades today, worse than usual. I never met people who could litterally kill me within seconds, 9 and under at times. No one wants to talk, and yet when they're able to talk something horriblely hasn't been going wrong that I can't help with. I feel really helpless.

Funy thing too. Mom comes in my room about two days ago. saying no orgies and don't get any girls pregant. She's gone to Jamaica for like two weeks. I could really careless. There's literally no girls in my life down here. I don't know where she gets that from, because none come over, and it's like she thinks she knows me. I know I'm childish and all, but I'm not that stupid! Man not a horn dog, so what I flirt alot, but to still be a virgin at this age sheesh you know how hard that is? I could have given up to anybody and there has been girls doing that, ugh bleh so desperate that's why I didn't even bother doing anything.

Pretty much to sum it up. I guess one of the girls I was going for, I texted her to see when she got better that we go to the movies. But never got an answer. So I text her saturday, and there she is at the movies, yet I could have sworn I asked her to it. I'm not so worried... Well kind of sorta, I mean could have told me a while back. Well shouldn't complain too much about it. PRobably wasn't going anywhere. All these people having problems or won't cheer up is making me sound sad and defeated myself ugh. Here's a song from R&B Singer Joe, "If I was Your Man" he's rom back in the day and he did a good job on this song.