makenzero @ MindSay

I Died a Sinner how Is It Possible To Be A Saint?

My Final Good Bye To Micheal Jackson For Some Time

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good people

good stuff

slow songs

the good stuff

Everyone was shocked. Of course I was to, yet it really did not hit me until that midnight Friday. When they started playing his slow songs when he was a little kid. The next morning I got up for work and driving to work and of course radio's on playing another slow song from him but it's him older. I have to say I was tearing up. I just felt so awful, like my heart started to give and feel real weak. I know you guys are like come on Rory. yet I was thinking the same thing. Why was I feeling this way. I did not know him in person. Yet as long as he's been on t.v., since like he was 11 years old. Even before that he had to get where he was so now I'm actually not as surprised he died at the age he did.

I was talking to an old friend of mine last night he just got back from Utah and he was in the mountains and he did not get to hear much of what's going on. He worked practically 40 years of his life. Dancing all over the place singing all over the place. People using him left and right especially the dad, abusing him all those years physically and mentally. People call him Wacko Jacko but you know what he would not have turned out that way if people really gave him a chance to be human. Maybe that's why he loved kids so much more than he should have or whatever. He did not want them to go through the same thing that he did and all sorts of stuff. Just listening to his songs. "Scream" Stop pressuring me. Or "Leave Me Alone" You could all see all sorts of stuff of what was going on and everything. his dad had the biggest affect on him, even when he was succeeding putting him down and also even made fun of his appearances. Maybe that's why he was never comfortable with the way he looked if you know what I mean.

There's just so much going on.Too many familiar people dying recently. I just felt like I really did lose a good friend and good childhood really did come from all his music. I feel bad no that there's going probably be pretty much an ordeal of what happen and whatever doctor is missing the speculations. Wonder what the will is going to say. All sorts of stuff going on. yet I'm just glad he's FINALLY at PEACE even with people making fun of him and spitting on his grave and what not. He still did a lot more good than bad and with the way his life turned out he deserved a lot better from all of us. I have to keep remember to look at myself and wonder what I need to do to make this place a better place.