Before I start on part two. I had no idea that I was on top blogs, even if it's lost meaning I'm not putting the word nominate anywhere and I'm just writing whatever. Thanks for putting me on there. Hopefully instead of people complaining about it maybe we should start figuring out ways we can make this site better. That is what the feedback button is for. Yeah that link waaaay in the top right corner lol. I think I know why I got on there. Hehe like the 1984 lunch box of Voltron? Awesome isn't it. It took me hours to find something like that. I wanted Voltron but I also wanted it where you see the five different color lions that create Voltron. I have another header I wanna put on here but it doesn't have the lions unfortnately. Glad you enjoyed it!

Part 2. Where were we? Talking about Lauren. I'll try to make this story short as possible so I can finish up the rest of the trip to my hometown. So Lauren I known for a very long time but didn't really talk to her until the first part of 7th grade year. A lot of people ended up picking on her and she built a wall around herself, a bit snappy. Well she was a semi red head, her hair was more likely strawberry blonde just a lot more strawberry. So i did my Rory Jones introduction and that's how it started. I think what I was thinking, I could get with her. ::Things are thrown at him:: Yeah yeah! Shame on me! At leat I'm paying for it right!?

Got her to change her appearance slightly. She was already good looking, just need a wee bit more work. So I fixed her, not the way I wanted her to dress, but I wanted her to feel good about the way she dressed and smile more. I'm a smiling person and it's very contagious I bring that out a lot in people, which I 'm very happy that I can do that for anyone even on here if I do that. Only one other friend knew what I was doing and he didn't say much which was fine, I just updated him time to time. Took me 4 months but I did it, and she was wonderful by then every guy was drooling and every girl wanted to be her best friend. Of course I went out of picture I actually made that choice but couldn't get away fully. They seen me around with her a lot, why aren't you going out with her. I thought, yeah wasn't that my original purpose?

Well anyways there were rumours and blah blah yadda yadda. I did ask her out a couple weeks before the dance and she said she will think about it. Mind this the dance was a 2 weeks away. No answer, I asked her again then backed off totally completely thinking that was a bad decision. So she didn't answer. So I went to the dance everyone goes to the dance but doesn't have a date, well duh it's only middle school lol. Went and I saw her and she was working the stands and wouldn't be off until like 2 to 3 hours. That was pretty much the whole time, so then went around talked to people, taught a few people how to dance, wow I can hardly dance any more how did I even know what was right? Anyways I went and saw another girl that I had a crush on for a while. Ended up kissing her, not even on the lips just on the cheek.

So she saw that and we had to ride together, and I didn't know that she did. Things got worse since I didn't have a ride one of the girl's mom's told me to ride with them. 7 girls and 1 guy later lol. Not good. Get home and go to Dustin's house to look for him yet I find Lauren in the field. She said she was leaving for vacation and such. Then she told me she saw, and I was pretty much silent. Did open mouth but nothing came out. She was shaking really bad but the last thing I remember her saying was. "I was going to say yes." OMG yeah anyways. You can hate me now ::sighs::

So the thing is, did I cheat on her or did I not? We weren't going out even if she did say yes we weren't going out. but anyways for a person like me I blamed it on myself and she pretty much blamed it on me. I remember after she had left I watched her go. I could feel my heart racing, it sounds so stupid doesn't it, but sometimes there are times where things like this make a ever lasting picture. A Sad picture pretty much. She did forgive me but it wasn't the same again, and I had moved so suddenly. So I never said good bye to her or anyone the matter of fact. Why is this important. Well it's something to look at since I only dated one time after that and been single for over half a decade. I just chill now, somethings different I haven't been the same. I'm more caring. Maybe too caring.

It was just so sad to see that she can't do something now. I don't think it's serious but still. She accomplished a lot of things and I always have a huge place for her in my heart, I just hate to see her be knocked down like that. I wonder what she's going to do? I emailed her but God knows if she'll ever check it. Moving on finally. So left Dustin's house, told Ryan to stay out of trouble and drove to probably my most difficult destination. Nick. I haven't seen him over a year I think. This is really the main reasons I said in the last entry. "Do I want to go or not?" I went by his house, and before I go on. There's been a lot of talk about him the past couple of years. I've seen some old friends here and there and still have ears here. Things aren't going well.

So I go by his house, and his brother and his dad are outside talking to some lady. I end up driving up to Chris his older brother and said what's up. We ended up talking and he was like man how are you!?!? lol I love the country gave me a big hug, need those even if it's from a guy I don't care I grew up here.  Parked the car and the lady had left. She looked like I knew her from somewhere, but it was extremely dark so it was hard to tell who she was. Got in the house, their dad hugs the crap out of me lol. Talked to the youngest brother, well he's not little anymore he'll be in highschool next year, damn I'm old >_<!

So Nick's dad starts talking. I tell him both parents have been laid off, told him I was going to school. The mom came in and was shocked to see me. So we talked, they look tried and exhuasted, not from work but from Nick and a little bit of Chris. Chris told me he had problems, and I knew he was a drug user but he caught but it's been 8 months and he's almost off and is giving up. He wants to move to Cali and take his girl with him, he turned out better then I thought thank god. So all three the mom, dad, and Chris tell me he's still at it. Ever since I left here things had gone down hill. Said Nick was into so much drugs that he was stealing from the house so much, that he get his friends to steal something from there, and his girlfriend to steal. His girlfriend turned out to be the one who was outside in the dark that I couldn't remember Tiffany.

What pisses me off is that Nick has to drag all these people into his problem. I remember when Nick first started, him and Tiffany were having sex a lot. Some how one night I ended up talking to her and she tells me she might be prego. And I asked if he knew, she did tell him and he was denying it and all. I told her to leave him, it wasn't worth the risk anymore. So she actually did, she cleaned up in everything and thanked me. So a few years later she dumped the other boyfriend Blake which I also played soccer with. He was obessive with her after that, so they some how worked that out. But Tiffany went for Nick again, Nick brought her down into the drug habit again. So she lies and steals for him. Why did I leave? Well I couldn't stand to look at him the way he was, so that's really why I stopped. But I have other people and his family was so good to me so I had to come back and see if I could do something.

But Tiffany left when I went back outside the house. So she was the only one who knew where Nick was. So low to where you still your little brothers stuff to sell of for cash to get his next fix. So the family isn't happy at all with him, these are very good people. I know kids have problems with their parents if they won't let them do this or that, but see when things like this happen what are they suppose to do. They've taken him back into the house, kicked him out, take him back in, and he still steals his families belongings. I know his parents have worked so hard to get where they're at. They both don't have very good jobs but they're really good people. Nick's mom gave this huge hug before I left, saying she was so glad I came by and they really that. Saying just keep praying for Nick, and that I was the only one out of the group to graduate on time and go do more schooling.

Schooling isn't for anybody, and I hate it so bad but I still got to see what I'm good at right? I'm just so angry and sadden by all of this. Both my best friends that I had since I was in first grade, both got into drugs and never even graduated on time. It really was better for me to leave, and my dad was right, which I didn't want him to be. Auburn's still a nice place to live but times have change and the drop out rate has increased even more. At least Dustin works and stopped all the heavy drugs. But he's just drinking a lot and smoking a lot. He wants a kid, and his newly wedded wife is pretty much the same way. I don't see how that's going to work but hopefully things will be alright with him. He's still a good guy I just wish he work on himself a bit more.

Nick. I'll be praying for you, but if I ever see you again I will confront you no matter how cruel I have to be, if it gets you to stop that's all I want. he might be moving more out into the country. He needs to get away from Auburn to see what it's like to live where none of that is. Even though he's dying already. He's got a hole in one of the parts that leads to the heart. It's getting bigger, so he can no longer do any sports. He was into sports a lot, we were on the same team and were the game breakers. I just hope that's why he went this route because he was dying and won't live past 30 years old. I wanted to forget so much, but then these were the people I grew up with. I just thank God that I am who I am, I really could have gotten dragged into it. Even though it may sound like I'm a goody goody and all, that just goes to show you drugs isn't the answer. I may have a rough time with life but at least I have somewhat of a straight head on. Rory's already screwed up why does he need anything to help him screw up even more?

I left, it was past nine, pure blackness in the country drive. And Have my Ghost in The Shell series CD, started to play a sad song. You could relate this to your parents. My mother my father I love them, I hate them. I'm glad God had time to create them. That's just how the world goes, and just don't know what's going to happen now. Go on with my life? What life, there really isn't anything there at all right now? Just got to wait be patient remember what hppen last time you didn't wait Rory.