It's such a weird world out there. Even though I complain about the whole relationship thing and such. I actually do see couples that shouldn't be together, no I mean the ones you can't see together. I was online a couple months ago and I remember MSN making fun of the more chubby dad's on t.v. sitcoms. And they were wondering how the heck these guys get all these hot wives on television and such. In real life it's practically the same thing. I'm sure I'm not the only one who see this. And also it's sometimes the other way around. I see a pretty good looking guy and the wife is average or even a bit below that. It's really weird, and I'm actually glad it's like that at times. But then again divorces is still around like the hottest thing since slice bread you know.

To tell you the truth. I was working on this one girl at work. She's new and all, but as me playing it smart I already knew that every guy was going to go for her so I didn't say anything at first. Because eventually she'll probably get harrassed by most of the guys. So eventually that did happen. Some 30 year old guy wanted to get with her and all these other guys. See the thing is. I probably doing the same thing and trying to be slick. It's unfortnate that guys are always trying to get something out of every girl.  I admit that was on the mind but more way in the back burner. It's not like I would go for that instanely because I could have gotten sex numerous times during my life time but it was actually to where I had to force girls off me. Or make up so really bad excuse. It's just messed up.

No matter how much I try to hide it. I sooooo love girls. they're my most favorite thing in the world! I'm a horn dog. And surpressing (or sorta doing that lol) is so difficult. So basically I told her to watch out for those guys at work (which was a good thing to say but also a bad thing to say.) So basically I ended up with the friendship mark clear as day on that shiny forehead of mine @_@. And it's like I told her I liked her way before that and I still end up like that. I played it alot more safer and try not to talk to her so much to give that friendship thing going but it still happened! >.<

Oh Rory Rory Rory whatca gonna do with yourself. I'm just amazed on how far I've come. You remember how I use to say it was years since I dated? Well it's to where I don't even consider that I've dated at all. I know women too well that on a whole another level I don't understand women at all. Does that make any sense? I mean probably the same thing with girls think about guys. Let me tell you something about guys. Don't give into sex so easily from what I've heard. Things usually go bad from there. Not because it's lust, it's because the guy got what he wanted out of it and such. You have all these girls wondering why or what's wrong with their guys.

Remember how I said something about challenges in last entry? It's kindo f like that. You have good challenges and bad challenges. By nature everybody doesn't want just a plain old boring relationship, even if it's the one most suitable for us. It has to be interesting and able to survive thick through then. Everyone wonders how I'm so smart and know all this stuff. I really don't know anything at all. I just THINK. I think about everything. People IM me wondering what I'm doing and I don't answer. They think I'm a slow typer after I answer them and such, no it's because I think so much that I actuall walk away from the computer and roaming around just thinking of all sorts of stuff. I have to constantly fight with myself. "Rory Jones vs. Male World of Hormones, live on pay-per-view, only $49.95!"

First of all as a guy, girls are always on the mind. As Rory girls are always on the mind. They have two totally different points of views of each other. And clash and fight all the time. Because I have to stop and think, what do I want out of this, do I wanna get some or do I want a relationship, or either other way I won't get either because I fight with myself too much. So nothing ever gets accomplished. But I do admit for being so guy like, the onl thing that's ever stopped me from achieving anything sexual or everything I wanted has been Rory. It's like my last line of defense seriously. That damn dorky kid who loves anime and says the most corniest pick up lines always seems to beat the guy horomnes of himself out in the end. My personal opinion I really think it makes me weak but then again I probably wouldn't be the person that I am. I'm not sure if it's good or bad but it's certainly different.

I noticed I'm being more open and actually talking about the stuff I go through. I use to think of it as a problem, but now it's more of trying to understand what goes on in the mind of what Rory really thinks. I sometimes wonder what people think of me even though it's not important. Just wanting to somewhat know what impact you make on them and such. That's the reason why people write in blogs. Or most to see what people have to say. That's why people long for replies and such and that's what I'm going to ask for. What you think of all this? "Eh weird as usual!" lol