At the Cereal Convention. The Shocking Secret At The Kellogs Cereal Meeting. ::Business people all around the large rectangle table looking at the main spokesperson:: "Now everyone, we've hadn't had a good idea since Raisin Bran!" ::everyone gasps and goes out of control throwing  chairs out of thirty story building then jumping afterwards::

It's pretty much 5 a.m. I'm up somewhat doing some studyingand eating Raisin Bran ^_^ lol. Not succeeding too much. Well actually I did get a lot of english stuff done so I'm not scared of that, actually until I get my essay. I know he's going to want to talk to me about it ::shakes head:: I'm not even going to say I think I did good. Whatever. I wrote it how best I could.

I wasn't feeling great at all yesterday. Something kind upset my stomach and been in the room all day. Been fixing my computer, it's a mess already bleh, and someone else has been using it grr. I think kittiebright is a quite concerned, she's definately not leaving me alone which I don't mind that at all. She's been on me forever still is, it's nice for someone not to give up on you. Everyone see that things are going good just because I live such nice replies and all. Things are always wrong.

I won't say their as bad as anybody else's problems. I really have to thank God for giving me a good family. Sometimes I think to myself that I could be worse, heck I could have been dead once. I did think suicidal a long time ago, but no one knew, because I didn't share. It's so hard to be there for others when your life is like a mess. I did that so much that when I finally got to myself I didn't even know where to begin. Things are better now, I just got to focus more on school and such.

Amanda told me she got a tattoo, I'm a bit shock but kind of figure she was going to do it sooner or later. I think their cool and all but does anybody think about the future? The body gets older and all, not only that it's just that, don't you like yourself? It kind of tells you who is more in touch with themselves and likes themselves as who they are. I jus never would have expected Amanda to do it. She probably knew I wasn't going to be too pleased but who said you had to please me?

I asked her something. She had played vollyball with the Asian twins that go to my college. I asked her who was who because even though I grew up with them, they never told me who was who. I can' only refer to them as Houa and Joua. She said Houa talks and is more of the ditzy one, Joua is the quiet one. I try to remember when I had dated them at a time when we grew up if that was true. I think Joua didn't talk too much or maybe it was Houa. Well God only knows that. I have a crush on one of them. It was so nice that they recgonized me and said hello and all.

My reading class I have a good average in there. So I'm doing alright. I was focusing on math a lot, by doing all the problems. But then it jsut got way too much and was short on time! I don't know how I can do that many problems. First time around I was doing up to 80 problems now to like 100+ every two days. I can't keep up. All I can do is take some notes. I need someone to drag me somewhere, but nooo gotta do it on my own which is the right thing to do. Just to defeat my state of mind. That's a whole another story all in itself. Which you people already know about that. As you can see I'm just rambling on so I will cal it that. I'll update some other time. I really need to get away from all electronics but there's no where to go -_-.