Couldn't find the real video to this since universal is being kind of a douche about it, it 's not like we make money off of you tube you know. But anyways mom's already making things worse don't know what her problem is, I've been taking care of myself just once when I don't have a job she gives me all this bullsh*t. And it's not like I haven't been without a job before, things are just a bit tighter because of school, not like she cares though already trying to get me to get another job, that's what I'm trying to avoid. Jumping into that crap again and working myself to death. She only pays attention to herself from what I've seen only cooks for herself only thinks only of herself. So I have this crap list to do tomorrow and I still have to go to the school tomorrow and demand to know everything and why it's taking so long. And dad's not back in town still in Jamaica so no money funds anywhere so I'll have to look up grants for the first time. Of course mom suggested this, because she never wants to use her own money. Oh and I'm the one who's paid for ALL my college, dad only paid the first while I haven't borrowed a single dime from him for school. So I don't she what she's complaining about nothing she's never done. Just cause you letting me stay in this house, still owe me more than half my childhood of being divorced and only coming to two event of my entire school career. Wasn't there when me and dad werre helping Brian get through college so I have no idea what she's thinking. I'm starting not to really care, if I'm that worthless I'll just live on the street and die there's almost no point in moaning over it. If things don't want to go the right way then must mean it wasn't suppose to in the first place. Here's my craptacular song writing with music by the Roots.

Life when things fall apart

from even the very start,

stabbing out my own heart.

As it goes drops off charts.

Was I even ever smart?

Mom keeps leaving feelings of nasty remarks.

Seeing that my car stays parked.

Has me seriously crazy marked

Being blown apart

As she lets out her badass bark

How has everything gotten so dark?

It's not even night

Please hurry up get bright

Everything is becoming so trite

Losing every single drop of might

Even going crazy in my mind

Being left behind

Trying running with all my life