I have wings, even though I can't fly with them

I fret as I comfort you

Because it is indecent to find your crying face beautiful

To keep chasing after the same dream is to constantly battle yourself

I could almost brag about the ever increasing number of scrapes on my heart

I can give you wings, even though you can't fly with them.

Those are the words that peel away your loneliness

And tell you that you are not alone anymore

Love can change any pessimist

You don't need to worry until you find that the path you chose is a dead end

Real Entry

But anyways the song you saw at the being. Do you guys like it? It's really good. I got it from the anime show Gundam Seed Destiny. Who says cartoons can't have music that has meaning to real life? There's so much going on I don't even know where to begin. I went to my mom and told her all the women in my life. When Tax Free was starting I met a girl named Huyen, who is from the South Houston store out there in Texas. I told my mom that she was totally blowing every guy's mind away. The funny thing is I didn't say nything on how hot or acted pretty much stupid or anything. I come back a hour to my friend Matt who knows me best. And he was surprised I didn't say anything about her right then, so was I. Something was definately different with me.

Of course increasingly we started talking. But the problem is that most of the people who came over are manger in training. So it was pretty much who was in charge. So she started asking lots of questions to where I actually said she asks too many. So we started butting heads and such. So she didn't want me talking to her anymore, and we went out of the way everytime we walk down the asile I actually would go backwards to where she was walking towards me and leave. Of course when a customer was with me and I have to show him something. Of course she was there to kind of screw me over at times. But eventually we started getting closer and closer. Also lots more guys were going after her.

Another thing is that she started hanging out with Matt and I. To tell you the truth we're practically the Anime and Videogame geeks/dorks. So every freaking guy would come up to me, she wasn't even there for a hour and everyone knew who she was. I have to admit. I never seen anyone like her, she's so gorgeous that it didn't even click in my head till hours later. We stayed at work for so many hours that I couldn't even remember what outside looked like practically. There when the sun rised, and there when it's pitch black night @_@.

We talked and talked and talked and talked and talked. Huyen is pretty much my best friend. I actually wasn't doing anything, I mean I was starting to like her more and more, but my flirt mode was like stuck on low. It was to where our recieving guys in the back actually see me and her talking/fighting/bitching/bickering/etc. The guys were saying we were on a whole totally different level. One of the guys was like, "Rory don't you feel that energy? you guys fight as if you were a couple or something man. You better take advantage of it you fool!" All my life I've been surrounded by beautiful girls as far as the eye could see. But there's never been success in me dating one, either too much of a friend, or just plan care too much at times. Another guy told me something, I hardly know him but his name is Dion he said something very interesting that I wasn't expecting. "A lot of nice guys finish last. At least they finish."

Not a bad statement. I noticed I wasn't finishing what I was starting, I was giving up when things got bad or even worse. I was thinking too much. I think all the time about everything. So I was like why not. I was probably at the best Rory level I've been in years. She opened me up a lot more and I made fun of her and such, of course she beat the hell out of me ^_^;; There were things we had to do together, selling stuff, handing out flyers, blowing up infinity amount of balloons and giving them to little kids. That probably had to be the set off right there. Her seeing me getting my knees and have this HUGE amount balloons and asking all the kids what colors they want and such. Plus I gave her a special balloon (It was purple! lol.) Really cute stuff.

Now with every single guy after her. I didn't know what to do, but I did do something. I didn't think about it. I just went along my merry way and did what was coming from my heart. The funny thing is we hardly hugged or shook hangs and such. It was only two times we did that. But basically her time was coming to an end, and that she had to go back to Texas. The day I go out to eat and get away from work I go to a store to find her a present. The thing we fought about was that she wanted to know what us Georgians do down here. Of course she asked Matt and I. And we're like the people who don't go out very much, so she was pretty mad that we didn't know and making fun of us. So I was buying her I'm sorry/thank you. First sorry for not taking her out so much, second thank you for opening me up! I feel like almost a totally different person. I was stronger then ever mentally, my confindence was boosting so much.

One of the other Manager trainee got her a present too. I saw him in the mall and I was like what's he doing here, but I think he got her some bath and body shop stuff you know. Not bad not bad. He was from the same store I think or whatever. So he was probably getting pretty close to her as well, but me and him hate each other at the beginning. God I met him and then he was like telling us how bad the store was and such. I kept my mouth such but I knew we weren't going to get along hardly, especially with Huyen being the way she is. I was about to bust some heads open for real. But back to the present. I had one of the guys with me, and he was like, "Damn that's extremely expensive Rory, she better be really worth it!" So I tell the lady the story as I am doing to you guys. And she just melted and was awing and such. Awing so much that she took off 65% of the price on what I got Huyen. The guy just was like, "Dude how you do that!?!" I have to admit mom would drag me shopping to see what she was going to get and all. I learned from mom, I haven't met anyone who can get 8 pairs of shoes under $80 and them being West Nine and Italian made shoes @_@. I'll never understand how she did that, but she was good.

Basically pretty much her last day actually working was Sunday. So they put her back in videogame section with me and Matt, for which we're finally in the best section and doing what were good at. Videogame talk! ::evil laughtered inserted here:: >8D hahahahmwhahaha! So she was amazed on how much we knew on videogames and that we can practically play every videogame that was put up on demo. The little kids were wowing at how I can play and figure out games so quickly. It's not that we play them alot. But we watch people fail horrible at them. And it's to where the games give you instructions and such. We ended up watching the E3 (videogame Convention) 2005, so we got to see all the new game systems and such. Microsoft isn't doing so bad after all, they have a good plan, but Sony's was ridiclously amazing, and Nintendo some hits itself aka (Legend of Zelda: The Twilight Princess.) And they showed the Frag Dolls (The videogame girls who kill everybody in first person shooters!) Then they showed all the cosplaying. I looked at her and said, "You're so freaking cosplaying! I'm taking you to a videogame/anime convention and getting you to cosplay!!!"

I told her that I had a present for her. She was a bit surprised and wanted to see. Of course I played this very well. I told her it was in my car because it's too small and it's not allowed in there. So I told her to come with me and that I would drop her off. She agreed and said she trusts me enough and all. So I told her to wait on me in the breakroom (bad idea) but I couldn't have her distract me as much as she was already doing. So I worked the rest of the day, and by the time I was done I went in the breakroom to find the guys all over her kind of. She gets up and leaves them in the dust.

So I take her to my car, and pretty much ready to drive off but then I stop the car, and said I can do it here. So I give her the bag. And she was like what is it, and I told her to open it. And her mouth dropped and she smiled so much. She couldn't even say anything. She was blushing and everything. The present was a golden braclet with yellow studs in it. I picked gold because she was very tan, her hair was highlighted and matched it really well, and her eyes go so well with it. What amazes me is that Huyen's a super rich asian girl pretty much. I mean driving a sports car (Lexus Sports car in fact.) But she was so shocked at it. So I drive her back to the hotel. Most people did say I was overdoing it, and perhaps I was but unless you know what I meant by it you would be wowed.

I told her it was a sorry present for not taking her out like she wanted too. Actually no one took her out which is weird. Then I thanked her for opening me up a lot more and letting me be my true self. I was actually not flirting for once, but all the stuff I was saying were from the heart. I told her I do really really really extremely like her. I even told her, "Before you can fall in love with someone, you actually have to like them first." (First anime ever watched Robotech, Roy Folkker was my favorite character, and actually the first character to get killed off in a show that I've ever seen." So I'm falling for Huyen, which I shouldn't. For a girl to get me to talk to my mom for a good 40 minutes about what's going on is amazing. I don't hardly talk to my mom about life and such. She wasn't there much, even though we get along fine, I just don't tell her all that stuff. "Oh my god mom there's this asian girl and she's totally blowing my mind away, it's to where I can't even think anymore, I have to tell someone!"

This is an extremely long entry and I'm not even finish there's so much to tell hopefully you read all this because there's still a lot of stuff I need to talk about. But yeah I really needed to write this down. So thanks for readin take care and come back for the second part.